Lonely = Venting!!

Have you ever just felt so alone? I do quite a bit...worse today, than other days. I haven't cried or anything, but I sure feel like it.  No one to talk to, no one to understand what I am going thru...I think I need to talk to my doc again, I just feel so sad most of the time.  It's getting harder and harder to hide how I am feeling. I really do need to have more me time, and I do need his support, not his comments all the time.  What is a girl to do?? I just don't know what to do anymore. He doesn't want me to scrap, cause it takes away from me sitting in the living room watching TV with him (yet we don't talk), he makes nasty comments if I want to go out with the girls (for coffee), yet every thursday (when I'm not working) he is drinking with the boys at work and drives home!!!  I think I've just had enough.  It's just like he doesn't think I deserve a life, he thinks he is the only one that is home all the time...funny thing is, I only work four days, then off for 5 days, who's home all that time...ME! When does he take time for him...everyday!!  He gets home from work, then usually sits and watches TV, me I usually have to cook, try and clean (lacking in that department), take care of Ryan...I'm just sooo tired.

I didn't even bother to ask about going to the crop in May...I just did it, I signed up, looking for a motel/hotel..and already have the time off. So as for me going to this crop...he has no say at all...I am going, I need this!

Happy St. Patty's Day!

Hope everyone enjoyed their day!!  I had my first day alone, no kids, no hubby...just me!!  I loved it, I surfed online (LCOM), had a 4hr nap, then I went to Michael's & Dollarama.  Picked up some cute little Prima flowers and some Zots...not much but I just couldn't leave without spending something LOL.

I am going to a crop!!!  A spring Crop!

I can't wait, I've never been to one so it should be fun, it's going to be my mother's day gift to me!!  I'm a little nervous about it though, since I won't know anyone there...oh well, I'm sure it won't take long to get to know all the girls from the forum.  I am so excited and it's still over a month away!!  Woohoo!!

Oh, Yeah..went to the movies last night with a girl from work, had a pretty good time...we saw Shutter Island, I was disappointed at the movie, so I'm reading the book now, hope it's better.  The movie was long, and it dragged quite a bit at some parts. Not at all what I was expecting!

Anyways, have a good night!

Well, it's that time of night...time for bed!  I really didn't do much of anything today, didn't get any scrapping done like I had planned.  But one good thing, I did get out of the house with my mom.  We ended up just going to check out the new Dollarama, which I ended up picking up a few things.  I did get some foam alphas, gonna try them out - Definitly not at good as thickers! LOL

Anyways, it's time for bed...update tomorrow!

OH here's the LO I did the other day, the first one since December. It's not finished yet, but thought I would post it anyways.

Goodnight!

Sorry..

for not updated this...I have finally returned to work from Maternity leave, and boys has life been busy.  I really should keep this up, it would be such a great outlet for me, since I am such a loner!!  Seriously, I need to get out of this house, I am always stuck inside with Ryan..never going out without him.  I only wish the hubby understood what it's like to not have any adult time exept for when your at work.  I could ramble on all day about this, but it's not worth it. 

Anyways, I want to go to my first crop in SJ on March 20th, but I don't know if Andy would watch Ryan or not, it's so hard to do anything, I always have to give a reason for things that I want to do. I so want to go to it, I only wish it wasn't so far...the ladies on LCOM are such a close nit group, you can tell how much they care about each other.  It's such a great site!

I've only been able to scrap one thing since December, and it's still not done. LCOM was putting on a cyber crop, but I was working that weekend, but I did manage to start one of the challenges.  One of the girls did a really cute LO in 30mins, well, I decided to try it....took me more than 30mins!  LOL  I have it pretty much completed, but I still haven't figured out what I want the title to be.

Well, I'm off work tomorrow and will try to do some scrapping, hopefully Ryan will be a good little boy and let this mama play a little.  I guess we'll see tomorrow.  I'm off for the night, going to go watch a movie, then start to read my book "Shutter Island", I hear it's quite good!! 

Ryan is now 15months old!! Wow!

He found his costume hanging in his closet and I couldn't resist letting him wear it!

I love this little guy!